THE BEACH RETREAT

For me water is an important thing in daily life. And when you talk about water, how can I forget the sea & the swimming pool. I have been addicted to sea & the water from the day I started seeing it. I love being in the sea shore, playing in the beach, exploring the unexplored & even looking at the sea itself makes me so content.

I make my family complete, I understood lately. Rarely do we go for a trip in our family. When I started earning, I took the initiative of going out with my cousins even if it’s a small beach trip. So I know they miss me for that little treat. But I never miss the opportunity to go beyond the lands. Be it office outing or family outing, I will be there.

Family outing is always tension free because you have to deal with the persons you know completely with their positives & flaws. But when you go from office for an outing its entirely different. You have to accept people as they are or else your day will be gone. I like to go into the depths of the sea & playing with the high waves & the rip tides. Its an awesome experience. The rough sea is always a wonder to me, it will push you into the depths of the sea, but still I like it more than the peaceful sea. The waves will make you summersault & end of the day you will feel you are a master of gymnastic.

Ever thought what will happen if the sea takes you in. I don’t even want to think about it, because I know that will be the end of it. I have seen people suffer if they are under water for even a split second. They think it’s the end of their life. But I would say they are not courageous enough to face the life or the reality. I can’t blame them because even for that split second they will be thinking about what will happen to their kids or family without them. I don’t think about it because I am scared & I try not to think about it.

Besides the wonder there is a mystery to the sea which makes it different from other creatures which God has created. And that mystery makes it evergreen & lively. I have been trying to learn swimming from a long time. And I only get a chance during the outings & that’s not enough for you to become a swimmer. I can’t blame myself either. The last few outings taught me how to float & that’s the beginning of swimming as told by my guru or guru’s. The feeling of floating itself makes me so happy which makes me think how happy I will be after learning to swim.

And the one thing I missed during the last outing is my best friend. I tried not to think about her absence but the more I tried enjoying the more I missed her presence. I hope this will be the last outing without her. And I am planning to meet her shortly that means I will have to quit what I have now…J

Evening Glory

It started with a pain inside me and then i realised yesterday night that my soul is burning. You would be wondering why all of a sudden when things were going smoothly..?? I understood that the source of everything is inside me. I tried to pacify myself saying that its me...Then i had a lengthy conversation with my best buddy who made me realise that nobody is happy in this world. You get job, money & every material thing you wish, but you will be still unhappy with something or the other. That's life i guess. My soul cried out loudly asif its still unhappy after hearing all these. When you hear soothing words you will be happy say for a few days or for some it would be few seconds. Same with me, like a normal human being i will be happy for 2-3 days & then back to the old self of burning my soul.

I decided i should stop killing my soul. Or else i will bury myself with the unwanted thoughts. I can’t correct anyone or nobody can. They realise through their deeds & experiences. The morning after that tearful night went not so smooth. Watching TV & surfing made me busy till afternoon. Then went out to a new place to have food. Not so appealing but the ambience was good.
Then my Burning soul wandered through the city in the evening...I mean after a long time we got into a bus & went to get some peace. You might be thinking where did i go to get peace. You cant buy peace, it lies within us. We went to our favourite Kutti Ganu temple & as usual ganu was looking cute. One thing i lack is concentration. I was praying but my soul was wandering through the depths of nothingness. Still i felt happy. I decided to forgive, forgiveness is one of the virtues after patience. Then my journey towards happiness triggered again.

We walked through the streets & felt the night city. I was in high spirits & walked through the city with one decision in mind. Forgive, forgive & forgive. Thirst made us stop & we had lime juice since we had minimal finance. After the tiresome walk we got into another bus & reached home. The past made me feel uncomfortable or say unhappy but I am happy now that I have forgiven everyone for everything. And I forgot to tell you something the characters who hovered through the city are my best buddy, friend, brother & The Burning Soul (who is happy…!!!).