It started with a pain inside me and then i realised yesterday night that my soul is burning. You would be wondering why all of a sudden when things were going smoothly..?? I understood that the source of everything is inside me. I tried to pacify myself saying that its me...Then i had a lengthy conversation with my best buddy who made me realise that nobody is happy in this world. You get job, money & every material thing you wish, but you will be still unhappy with something or the other. That's life i guess. My soul cried out loudly asif its still unhappy after hearing all these. When you hear soothing words you will be happy say for a few days or for some it would be few seconds. Same with me, like a normal human being i will be happy for 2-3 days & then back to the old self of burning my soul.
I decided i should stop killing my soul. Or else i will bury myself with the unwanted thoughts. I can’t correct anyone or nobody can. They realise through their deeds & experiences. The morning after that tearful night went not so smooth. Watching TV & surfing made me busy till afternoon. Then went out to a new place to have food. Not so appealing but the ambience was good.
Then my Burning soul wandered through the city in the evening...I mean after a long time we got into a bus & went to get some peace. You might be thinking where did i go to get peace. You cant buy peace, it lies within us. We went to our favourite Kutti Ganu temple & as usual ganu was looking cute. One thing i lack is concentration. I was praying but my soul was wandering through the depths of nothingness. Still i felt happy. I decided to forgive, forgiveness is one of the virtues after patience. Then my journey towards happiness triggered again.
We walked through the streets & felt the night city. I was in high spirits & walked through the city with one decision in mind. Forgive, forgive & forgive. Thirst made us stop & we had lime juice since we had minimal finance. After the tiresome walk we got into another bus & reached home. The past made me feel uncomfortable or say unhappy but I am happy now that I have forgiven everyone for everything. And I forgot to tell you something the characters who hovered through the city are my best buddy, friend, brother & The Burning Soul (who is happy…!!!).
well u have nick to write and write well. few people can write in a way that ties the reader till u finish it. i understand this is just a start but way to go. if u keep writing one day this same thing could change your life..for good. :) All the best
ReplyDeleteforgive me for that tastelessly bad humour in my facebook comment...you keep surprising me all the time,nah, its me underestimating you...cant help it lady,but my respect for you just keeps growing...you write pretty well...and it takes courage as well...i started my blog sometime in 2005.i haven't added a line in 5 years...you made it look simple...and i thought i am pretty good at writing.
ReplyDeletegod speed and good luck
over and out
november delta