Does distance make a difference…? Experience taught me that it does and I don’t want my daughter to treat her dad like a stranger under the same roof. Strangeness is such a sad feeling, have realised it lately. To a Daughter, father would be the most influential person in her life next to her husband. Recently I saw a documentary in which a male bird is setting up the nest to protect the baby and mom from the upcoming storm. That shows how responsible and caring the father is. The male bird has no life without the baby and mom. Life revolves around them . The scenario is same when it comes to human beings too. The sudden unexpected change in the environment takes a toll on the male bird, but it continues to fight for the family. In the end the nest is washed away by the storm and the family is entirely shattered. They have no home to live in and a baby bird who cant even fly. Eventually they fall into the life’s surprise called separation. The baby bird cant survive the weather and it dies. The family is torn apart and the sheer existence of the female and male bird has become meaningless. They fought throughout the storm thinking that they have a baby who needs to see what life is. All of a sudden, their hope has been snatched away by fate. Only they could feel the emptiness of their life. For them it was the end of life. The storm subsided taking away their life and leaving them stranded. They decided not to cry over the past but to go on with the memories of their lad and to lead life loving the moments three of them had together. To me this seems like an inspiring story asking me to move forward despite the bad experiences which I have been through. The same force asking me to move forward has kept me alive unknowingly and has provided me with the best experiences in the world too. So never ever give up. Love you my life.
Friday, February 10, 2012
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Trapped
Imagine if u r in a lift and the power goes off, if u have company you wont worry tat much, but if u r ALONE… Alone is such a lonely word which I would hate to think about and I am sure it’s the same with you guyz too. But there are some who prefer loneliness to company. I wont belong in that category. But sometimes we do feel lonely even though we have good company. Is it because the crowd is bad or is it because your mind is shut inside a box…? Our mind is like a bird, u can trap it or u can let it go. Whichever you choose decides your destiny. Guess my inner self was shut throughout my childhood days and the reason I found out is that I never had good company. But when I was running through the teenage phase, the scenario was almost the same. Guess I was trapped, but there was a sudden twist in my life and which moulded me into what I am now. My decision to join one of the well known colleges in the city turned my life into something more meaningful. Until then my dream was to get a job, but things changed, priorities came in. Was I more worried than before….nope,…i was kinda enjoying the unexplored feelings of my phase. And that was truly amazing I should say. I used to pray like hell to never part with the company I have and sometimes I buriied my feelings inside the WELL of my mind(which only I have access to i.e. my secret well).
Feelings never lie buried. From my well popped up plenty of fruitful things. Those fruits have been nurtured and it’s a big family now.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Getting Started
End of June, and i am thinking what have i done in the last five months....nothing, i must say. Have i been waiting for a lightning to struck, or have i been waiting for some one to push to do something i can do...If i say i dont knw, then thats an excuse..
I know this is the case with all lazy goose's in the world. Though they have the resources and time, they simply waste it. Its time for a new start, this happened back in jan as well and i am not embarrassed to say that because i am shameless...:)). Always waiting for some spark or some push from others is what all of us are used to. Isnt it time that it should change. You are recreating what you have in your mind, so you dont need need anyone's help. Just keep going no matter what happens...
I know this is the case with all lazy goose's in the world. Though they have the resources and time, they simply waste it. Its time for a new start, this happened back in jan as well and i am not embarrassed to say that because i am shameless...:)). Always waiting for some spark or some push from others is what all of us are used to. Isnt it time that it should change. You are recreating what you have in your mind, so you dont need need anyone's help. Just keep going no matter what happens...
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Its POURING
U might be thinking its rain thats pouring down, but naa...its my thoughts about writing...a bunch of friends inspired me..it happened yesterday, starting a blogger for yourself is a great thing...i have been ignoring this all these days...is it coz i was nt having time or i am too lazy or not bothered about writing...watever the reason may be, i am wiping that off from my thoughts...and gonna scribble every now and then(even if its crap)...:)Oh Lord, please give me the strength to atleast open this page once everyday. Oh man, if i can open Face Book thrice or more than that a day, y cant i open this page then..?? Good thought right..i know, think guyz think..we are wasting our time watching stupidity. Imagine, if we all start writing & reading..then the world will be full of shit right...yeah yeah laugh u idiots..but u cant stop us from the downpour...the time has arrived...get set gooo guyz..all the best to my frnds..:)
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Doing Nothing
it has been a dull day today...not overloaded as usual..had a cup of coffee in the morning...followed by soup(cream of chicken)was it really chicken, i wonder. but anyways who is bothered about what i had..the point is i am having something, unlike other days..oh, i forgot to tell. i had a sandwich as well, by the way thats tikka. i bought it from the metro shop inside Deira metro. That reminded me of the Tikka Sandwich i used to have when i visit Coffee Day in Ginger...good old days man...but those are gone...you find coffee shops here, but no more appealing. everything about trivandrum has its own charm i guess..thats makes me miss the place terribly..!! i know thats how everyone feels over here...you dont realise the true value of things unless you are away from it..how true..!!!
Hating Class B
My friend was studying in Class A...bt does that mean that Class B is bad...i think everyone has their own preconception that whatever they have or do is the best...but thats positive thinking in a way. But most of the times thats kinda ofcrap...Lately, i have been having a chat with one of the morons in the office..who was going on saying, his place is the best,his city has one of the richest guy..But does that help you or your people around..i guess NO...then why is he boasting about it...??
but i understood, people are never gonna change..we are from India, doesnt matter which city you come from, you should atleast think that your country is best, not your city alone...and this guy talks shit to my friend about her city, the great Mumbai..And she being a mumbian, gave him left, right and center. And now a days, he doesnt talk that much when we come..See the change...Change is the only thing changing everyday...so lets see it differently
but i understood, people are never gonna change..we are from India, doesnt matter which city you come from, you should atleast think that your country is best, not your city alone...and this guy talks shit to my friend about her city, the great Mumbai..And she being a mumbian, gave him left, right and center. And now a days, he doesnt talk that much when we come..See the change...Change is the only thing changing everyday...so lets see it differently
Thursday, August 19, 2010
SAYING 'NO' TO NO
Oh My God, What have i done? I feel pathetic & disgusting. Not because someone else has done something to me but just the mere thought of how foolish i can be is making me feel terrible. You might be thinking what is this gal talking about. I gave my personal mobile number to a complete stranger. Can you believe it.? Yes, i did it. Most of you will be thinking whats so terrible about it. But how many of us think about the consequences that alone can cause. A girl like me in a new city with weird rules cannot make such stupid mistake. Because the fear i am feeling now is inexpressable. Though i have my husband staying with me, i feel this terrible fear because anything can happen in this world. My husband goes for work early in the morning & comes back by noon. I have his company for the rest of the day. So i shouldnt be that worried.
I was so scared that my hands started shaking when i heard the calling bell. Most of the time it will be people i know. I was having my lunch alone when i heard two bells. I ran to open the door because it was the much awaited call. We were waiting for the internet connection to come through for the past few days. My husband called me today & said that they are coming to fix it today and i should manage it. So i knew it & opened the doors. Two guys were there, one was the assistant. The main guy asked for permission to come in & apologized for disturbing me at this time. I said it was ok becuase its our need to get the connection fast. Guy asked me if i was a malayali. I said yes & he asked me if i could switch on the a/c. I feel chill when i put that on for more than 5 mins. So i shut it down the moment heat comes down. Thats why it was not on. He asked me if somebody came previously to check this.I said a guy came 2 weeks prior & we complained & nothing happend. He checked few things & told me the problem is still there & he will fix it in 2 days. And he asked for my number. I said i will give my husband's number. Then he asked me dont you have your number. Meanwhile i was grabbing my mobile to get my husband's number. Since he asked twice i gave my number, i will call it 'the moment of utter foolishness'. But i didnt feel bad at that time. He said he will call once its fixed today itself. All of a sudden he wanted to shake my hands. I was thinking how can i give my hands. Finally i shook my hands and he smiled. And then i realised something somewhere is wrong & that i shouldnt have given my number and i shouldnt have hand shaked. During situations like this i convince myself saying what happend is already gone, you cant change it. You can prevent things getting worse.
The guy called after two hours & i was shivering when he said he is coming over again to connect the internet. I had no balance to call my husband. This time the tube light in my head starting working. Our friends were staying opposite to our door & i called them home for tea. They came & i told them what has happend & they promised to stay with me until that guy has gone. Finally I was relieved. The bell rang after few minutes. My friend opened the door. I was in the kitchen making tea. So i couldnt see the guys reaction. Somehow it was going smoothly & silently. Then the bell rang again. I went to open it. I was so happy to see the person in front of the door, my husband reached finally. With lot of people around & with my husband the guy had hardly anything to say & he left after connecting our connection with the world. And i decided not to answer unknown numbers & i decided i will say NO whereever its needed.
I was so scared that my hands started shaking when i heard the calling bell. Most of the time it will be people i know. I was having my lunch alone when i heard two bells. I ran to open the door because it was the much awaited call. We were waiting for the internet connection to come through for the past few days. My husband called me today & said that they are coming to fix it today and i should manage it. So i knew it & opened the doors. Two guys were there, one was the assistant. The main guy asked for permission to come in & apologized for disturbing me at this time. I said it was ok becuase its our need to get the connection fast. Guy asked me if i was a malayali. I said yes & he asked me if i could switch on the a/c. I feel chill when i put that on for more than 5 mins. So i shut it down the moment heat comes down. Thats why it was not on. He asked me if somebody came previously to check this.I said a guy came 2 weeks prior & we complained & nothing happend. He checked few things & told me the problem is still there & he will fix it in 2 days. And he asked for my number. I said i will give my husband's number. Then he asked me dont you have your number. Meanwhile i was grabbing my mobile to get my husband's number. Since he asked twice i gave my number, i will call it 'the moment of utter foolishness'. But i didnt feel bad at that time. He said he will call once its fixed today itself. All of a sudden he wanted to shake my hands. I was thinking how can i give my hands. Finally i shook my hands and he smiled. And then i realised something somewhere is wrong & that i shouldnt have given my number and i shouldnt have hand shaked. During situations like this i convince myself saying what happend is already gone, you cant change it. You can prevent things getting worse.
The guy called after two hours & i was shivering when he said he is coming over again to connect the internet. I had no balance to call my husband. This time the tube light in my head starting working. Our friends were staying opposite to our door & i called them home for tea. They came & i told them what has happend & they promised to stay with me until that guy has gone. Finally I was relieved. The bell rang after few minutes. My friend opened the door. I was in the kitchen making tea. So i couldnt see the guys reaction. Somehow it was going smoothly & silently. Then the bell rang again. I went to open it. I was so happy to see the person in front of the door, my husband reached finally. With lot of people around & with my husband the guy had hardly anything to say & he left after connecting our connection with the world. And i decided not to answer unknown numbers & i decided i will say NO whereever its needed.
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